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the life  kept us busy towards end the body got dizzy. the game looked easy though not so the isolations - weren't that pretty. yes I talk silly keeping self occupied while millionaires made money working in own city. the idles sat lazy it was me who waited patiently to meet  to greet to exchange the magical hug to fill the empty mug. they said with a shrug - move asked an identity to prove my entrance - disapproved not mere an onlooker being asked, was something New.

Attaining peace attained piece tranquility ceased across borders; and inside the four wall boundaries. those ceased dreams living in harmony faked perfectly the fear born internally lived life as distorted tree. the euphoric life an illusion the endless strife no lies an urge to fly escaping cries the unheard whines the trust declines in the times the life when rhymes those prolonged strives the failed endless tries I'll die.

The mother asked nature to bless her with a daughter who'd  care. she said as cold as glacier adjustable as water the care taker the survivor the one who'd replicate her the one who'd hug on failure. my oldage, she said she would nurture the best of better during the heaviest thunder she'd provide the best shelter. a baby girl she wished for putting an end to the war to the God she said, I demand nothing more A wish to see before I sleep forever on the floor.

i missed my sleep the dreams that could've been deep i promise to keep the talks that were the need a clean sweep nothing to reap my travel to the hill angled steep a shout too loud; even the deafs heard it in the crowd. the eyes won't allow to see me wearing a shroud the escapes'd be made the stars would begin to fade I'd rest in shade i trust no hates the love would get trade unafraid I rest my case!!

The more i talk less The more i get tensed The less i express I'm scared to confess i held on to the dates not forgetting the mess i create the increased hate that became a mandate. the worn dress of cowardness; me trying show the strength achieved no success. learning to express from no to yes dear self!! you need a bless; that works as a distress. the same old address the reason for my distress to the one who'd accept with all the flaws the love would be priceless.

the voices some heard  some unheard the echoed words ringing chords the noise touching the cliff as sharp as sword they meant a meaning if delivered right they'd add delight. the tall buildings kissing the sky the turned on lights during the night the wee hours' time the late night's fights the lost love all above embraced silence the pair of hands sprinkled diamonds.

I might walk the distance if asked for!! to continue the talks left at the door of our home. travelling cautiously into the next year yes I've mastered the art; of confining the secrets in my heart. when met they'll find way out; and I've no doubt. Several shouts i guess they weren't too loud stood stranded the waits got ended. I left empty handed No, wait I stole a gift of understanding, and I hope that won't be reported. the absenteeism' hours let the love get showered

crafted unwell the unplanned good byes exercising life the night narrated entire span. the bed held the hostage to have last laugh; before being executed. the lovers lying abed the coming griefs, I doubt if they'd accept the opened arms the traded charms fallen apart the closest heart the change be certain putting down the curtain i beg your your pardon for the walks left empty in those old gardens.

i left home and a soul so pure maybe I'll return; to see the painted walls and few new things to be learnt. i hope you stay happy and content lead a life that's inspiring and magnificent. I'll return with some wrinkles on the face the signs of me getting aged with time's grace... the make up works no wonder and you'll see me do surrender and a thought of wonder you might question - how have I've been such a slow runner?? old to enough to recall the childhood days and a shock to see the favorite place being replaced with some new shop's shades. a coffee cup being changed; though the replacement i wish never he attained..."

"from praying for you to missing you yes I've grown up by seeing and not seeing you. the life looks missing when you go down and pale. not been able to share that time dared... fighting the battle alone my heart became stone a large groan that you ignore. you started a new life leaving behind the old and classic where 'I' remain stagnant and 'you' kept changing, the roles.... wish i was a blood relation that could have accepted your absenteeism though not necessary you treat me no less than your real. be back to your place reason!! no one can ever take your place."

being missed. often seen the pictures clicked. and i pick the past year's talk through the message box being little quick before the another played trick. i often fall sick remedy sit in solace talk to stars while driving in that old hatchback car. standing in front divided by the shores those closed doors often knocked. no response - leaving shocked feelings chopped the entrance stopped the self got dropped not been able to walk lifetd up in the air and the birds made to stalk. those empty door bells; you'd wish the absence doesn't talk."

and i miss the wait that diluted the hate repeated mistake of getting stuck at the interstate. the eager wait next to the coffee shop gate the late arrival giving the magical hug and ensuring the survival. the slurp sound from the coffee mug became a lifetime drug. the last winter coffee said sorry for the small days couldn't complete the story!! the goodbyes under the moonlight promising to meet for long the next time. waiting for the Summers the dates and years rolled over spending each day as a layover."

"I made you cry you said my most feared word 'goodbye' during the night my eyes failed to get wiped. i look up into the sky ask the inner self 'why'??? and if i could apologize for my deeds that left you jeopardized i know you'll stand by my 'side' make able to walk with 'pride' i promise to be a good ally for in the past I've failed to 'qualify' - a brother that you dreamt of a brother that you asked for!! someone that you could look for and not to come back and travel to Mars that puts at 'WAR'."

the Summers arrived that added the delight human said yes i am alive a big high five. the clock didn't allow to say goodbye and the toughest years, yes, i survived emotions derived those evenings before the nights; said complete the story before the moonlight. the same table the repeated coffee rounds waiting for the lost character that recently got crowned.... the twinkling stars in the dark sky a notifier to leave before the tears roll down the eyes not leave them abandoned and left to Die..."

and i ended my day with a riddle I landed on the bed of a hospital. the gathered fam's questionnaire my failure to answer those eager ears. their arrival without an invitation a feel of self assassination. the promises of being 'forever' were seemed getting replaced with 'never'. sorry!! those pair of eyes said standing in the corner seeing me being 'laid down' to rest the voice i, too, felt will be missed sorry for the promises I made i knew my missing would be kissed. a final thank to the pair of eyes to make self able to see me for the one last time. wish i could have stayed more wish i could have kept the statement that i swore wish i could have met you before in the world that seemed biting i wish could the existence much more EXCITING.

Dear Ritasha, I hope you are doing well. It's been couple of years since you were last seen. Whenever I look into my Google photos and look at the pictures clicked with you, I feel nostalgic. I feel see how I've grown up. Lol. The first time I saw you in the year 2017, I had an impression of you being from most posh areas of Delhi. Maybe South Delhi!! I don't know why? I was always sacred to speak to you or to approach you. It was just if I had some work I used to come upto you. The reason why I felt that you seemed to be from South Delhi was because of the reason you carried yourself in such a manner. Well, back in 2018 it was first time I saw you in casuals and not in formals. You didn't change. Till the time I actually spoke to you I didn't know that you were a gem. And I was equally surprised to know that you are from Meerut. We haven't spoken a lot ever since we have known each other. Also, I don't know if it's normal or not, I used to think th