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"She looked so beautiful while trying the bridal gown, bangles, and the necklace.   They all still look beautiful, but with a difference.  "A day would come when my photo will hold the same smile, but, with a difference.

1. "I like my independence", she said.      "Then why do you want to get married? ", I asked.      And then something ended before the beginning. 2.  Both the ending and beginning brought a smile on her face. While resigning and signing the       offer letter. 3.  "What good can one find when stuck in traffic?"       I get more time to spend time with my Dad!!

"I saw the sun setting down I saw the end of a new day I saw the birds going back to their nests I saw the kids going back from their play-fields I saw people's dreams coming true I saw many shattering down because of the dreams being broken I saw a bunch of people running like a mad-man Towards the destination that is not even certain Giving that destination a wild goose chase And not even assure of the comfort level after falling in that space!! I saw a kid getting lost in the crowd I saw people shopping like storm cloud. I saw the world going upside down. And during all this; I saw you changing. I saw you moving ahead. I saw you making new circles. I saw you scaling new heights. I saw you getting molded in a better person. I saw you leaving mark in my head. I saw it all happening when you were busy with your life style. I saw you leaving behind the inked pages of your past. I saw your beginning to write the blank pages of the-to-be-History book. And

"I have not seen you from the time that sin happened. I wish you are still the same. You are still that talkative. You still crack jokes. You still m ake fun. You still Pull legs. You still Taunt. And you still laugh like no one is watching you.  It has affected me more than it has affected you. And that 'HURTS'!! The reason being I have never came across anyone with similar energy. Nor do I want to witness anyone who matches your capabilities."           - Pushkin Channan 

"It is always around the same time of the night  when the realization comes back to me.  The realization of me not being good enough and  you were.  The realization that you are no longer mine or  that you are no longer here.  It always hits around the same time of the night, when the tears are rolling down my cheeks that you would never love me!!"             - Pushkin Channan 

"I knew a girl who liked practicing kind of DEATH. She would stay awake for weeks of time, black bags framing her eyes, a string of emptiness looming in her eyes. After her insomnia-tic nights, She would sleep until she felt whole again. I asked her which felt more disappearing ?? But she only smiled at me!!"

It is evening time the sun is still out It is summer and the month of May I can hear the sound of the vehicles on the road, though I am sitting in the 04 wall of my office. I can hear the noise of the kids in the play-fields which are no where near to my office. The sound of the vehicles which were going back home & the noise of the kids on the play-fields cheering up their partners Disturbed the tranquility of my mind For the reason I was sitting away from home working on weekend to earn my livelihood. Fighting some odds as I was eager for some lauds. Well, my mind was tired with the hassle of daily life-style Needed a break, hence praying for the sunset in a little while. For the reason I had fallen in love with the darkness And those stars up in the sky which used to beautify the mother nature at night. The night that was responsible for me loving myself and my 'DEAR DIARY'. And then I felt it going to the another level of glory. Well that glory was all

I walked through the lonely roads of the city Listening to the bark of the stray dogs It was night and all I could see were the street lights That were meant to show the way to the pedestrians like me Though it was night and I was the only one walking down the streets The lights showed me the way towards my unplanned destination And even I got puzzled with the route to be chosen As the destination was not decided because life was a bit chaotic The reason of the chaos was never known to me And I, intentionally, never wanted to know about it Because the reason always hurts the heart  And the healer always sits world apart Being a poet, I always pen down my pain Thinking that the person would someday realize the condition of my heart’s ache.                Pushkin Channan

" Late at night I think of you And know how things ended And I open my phone  And I look at your contact And all I need is to talk to you And I know how easy it would be to give in And I know it would be no use And I know you wouldn't reply But I know it's best to just go to sleep But I know by tomorrow morning  I'll know better But I know it's useless to wish for yesterday's dream...."

I am the calm blue, you are the extreme orange; we met and the sky turned into a beautiful chaos; together, we are the sunrise

So sad, Today you looked so sad. I don’t know why, You felt so dismal and bad. You looked as though, You were on the verge of tears, And when I asked why, You didn’t reply. Please tell me why, You look like you’re about to cry. I only want to help, So let me, please…

Its 0100 Hours in the midnight and I am still awake, Thinking about the time spent with you. The time when half of the world is dreaming, I am still chasing the dream with open eyes. The dream of being successful and  to be able to walk with pride. I still think about the time spent with you  and making it a memory that is never to fade away. For the reason time does fade the memory When for a long we don't get to see each other. These days when we don't meet  Makes me feel like our friendship is over powered by some eclipse. May be solar or may be lunar, May be partial or full, whatever!! But yes it does give me that feeling. And I do not want you to be memory in my life because the fights that we have will be missed by me, Because no one else can do it in better understanding than you!!         - Pushkin Channan

क्या गिला करता मैं तुझसे जब तेरा हाल ही ठीक नहीं खुदा से भी क्या मांगता जब तू मेरे साथ नहीं। ज़िद पर अड़ा है ये दिल कौन सी, मुझे मालूम नहीं।

तुझे देखे एक अर्सा हो गया, ऐसा लगता है के तू चाँद जितना दूर हो गया   वक़्त का तगाज़ा दोनों को ही नहीं रहा खुद की तुलना मैं सूरज से करने लगा क्योंकि चाँद तुझे बना दिया 😉 ये दोनों भी कभी नहीं मिलते या कहो के सदियों में एक बार मिलते हैं लेकिन जब मिलते हैं तो पूरी दुनिया इन्हें देखती है हमारी दोस्ती भी कुछ ऐसी सी हो गई है एक शहर में रहकर भी नहीं मिल पाते जैसे चाँद और सूरज सामने से निकल जाते हैं दुनिया का तो पता नहीं, लेकिन ये सूरज तुझे ज़रूर देखता है जब कभी भी दोनों का मिलना होता है।             - Pushkin Channan

"It's been ages since we last met, And all I can do is to wait and beg. To beg about your quick recovery, And to bring back smile on you and the face of your family. I know God hasn't been fair enough to you, Making you sick all day and night with some flu. I wish you get well soon, For the reason your absence makes me feel like you are as far as moon. I miss that evening coffee of ours, When Sitting in CCD we used to wait for our turn. Those crazy short and long drives Which made me realize about your driving style. The style that could make anyone go crazy. May you get well soon is all I can pray  Because your smile matters a lot as you have gone through enough of ailing phase".

ज़िन्दगी के कुछ उन पहलुओं को समेटने की कोशिश कर रहा था के तभी महसूस हुआ के कहीं उन्हें हासिल करते करते ये पल जीना ना भूल जाऊं। पहलू वो भी ऐसे जो कभी छुपा कर रखे थे मैंने अपनी तन्हाई में जीने के लिए, क्योंकी ज़िन्दगी का मुझे भरोसा तो रहा नहीं के कब किस का साथ पराया हो जाए। तारीफ़ में उसकी मैं क्या अल्फ़ाज़ बयाँ करूँ यूँ तो शब्द भी शरमाते हैं उस तक पहुचते हुए.....

We haven't seen the best of each other I hope we both are still working on that masterpiece To prove the world our metal.

ख़ुशी मिली तो कई दर्द मुझसे रूठ गए  दुआ करो के मैं फिर से उदास हो जाऊँ ।    तुझे ढूँढने की खातिर शहर की गलियों में खुश्क पत्तों की तरह बिखर जाता हूँ मैं। सकून और इश्क़ दोनों एक साथ?? क्या बात करते हो जनाब!!

"I always think of you before I fall asleep.  The words you said, the way you looked, The things we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. And when I dream, I will dream of you, For the reason its about you and its always about you".

She has the places that she has a desire to visit. She has the pieces of quotes that are  splattered in ink in her favorite books. She has the road trips she hopes to go on. She has the beautiful characters that  mesmerized her in her favorite books. She is full of dreams and I hope they one day come true.                         -Alexa Evangelista

I never had the Black as my favorite color  until I saw you wearing it. Some truths are fire and some truths are ice. People go but how they left us always stays!! You haven't seen the best of me. I am still working on my masterpiece. 

To, The Best Friend Date - 07th May, 2016 Its been really long, hence thought of writing my second letter to you. I hope you will enjoy reading it. And this again finds an important place in your wardrobe as the first one. A short poem from my side. I hope you have kept that one safely and securely and would do the same with this. :) "I look at you- and I want to hug you. More than anything  I just want a hug from you. A hug to tell me  that you still love me and care for me. A hug to remind me of you being there in my tough times & saying, 'Don't worry, I am here'. A hug to show your motherly  care for me on an alienated land. A hug to remind me that  actions speak louder than words. I look at you- and all I need is to hug you and ensure that I always have your back." Take care and stay healthy. Regards Your Besty

Trying to close my eyes while lying in the bed The effort looked all in vain Thinking of how we are connected By one long string of loneliness

I am not god at relationships I manage to find the flaws sometimes in others but mostly my own. I foretell the ending Then go and create the cause Save myself and end up alone. The last time I hurt someone My heart felt this loneliness I didn't know if I would ever recover.

You left in peace You left me in pieces......  What if it never gets better??

If I look at her closely I can see that every now and then She turns away from her group of friends And her smile falters And she becomes another person for a few second; A Sad Person A person who is broken and damaged, And after a few depressing seconds   She goes back to the group smiling and joking around, She almost looks like she is actually happy But if I look at her closely I can see how spurious her smile really is And i could see all the wreckage behind her fake smile..