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My Commitments

"This morning I told myself not cry when thought comes to my mind,
I told myself to control the emotions.
I told myself not to get way too emotional.
I told myself if you have an impact, you will be called.
I told myself if someone had to discontinue talks with me, they will.
I told myself if anything has to happen, it will happen.
I told myself if someone stays, its because they decided to and not because I'm worth.
I told myself if someone boycotts me, its because of my insane nature.

 So now,
I have promised myself to be myself, not to hurt anyone.
I have promised myself not hurt anyone.
I have promised myself not to be part of anyone's happiness.
I have promised myself not to share my sorrows.
I have promised myself not to get engaged in social gatherings!!
      After all it all hurts.

                           - Pushkin Channan

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